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JenniferWalters

 
What was your most challenging travel experience?

Learning another language.

  • From Ohio, United States
  • Currently in Ohio, United States

This is an experience of a lifetime.

emotions.

the beginning again.

Peru Cusco, Peru  |  May 10, 2011
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i've been home for over a week now. and i'm starting to get ansy. i miss cusco, i miss my girls, i miss some of the aspects of my life there. i'm starting to feel overwhelmed with the stuff i left in january, and i hope it doesn't affect the progress i made in peru. i love the confidence and self-acceptance i gained there. and i'm gonna fight to keep it.

but it's so weird here. no taxistas to honk and me and talk to. no mercados, just go to a walmart. it's been raining since i got back, i miss my sunshine. there's no salsa, i want to practice the dance that helped me become comfortable in my body. no friends or hangouts. driving is such a weird feeling. in cusco, no one knew my past and my past didn't matter, here my past haunts m e and everything i do. i feel out of place. there's no bakery's right outside my door. no random dogs barking.

i find it weird that i felt more accepted among people i was so different from, from physical aspects to cultural - i was accepted. here where i look like everyone else and share the same culture i feel more out of place, more susceptible to feeling alone, not accepted. people here are judging i feel. i miss speaking spanish, the practicing, the nice people you meet...the stories that come with them...idk, it's strange and i can't explain it.

cusco, peru...i miss you.

the journey is beginning again. and i don't know how to deal with this.

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